My band played our first show last night...at one in the morning....in my bed...in my imagination. I pictured the whole thing...including what I was wearing, who was there, I even went through an entire song with me on drums. I got into bed at around 10:30, and didn't stop thinking until I eventually passed out around 2 a.m.
I've never been a good sleeper. I remember lying in bed as a child for hours...thinking about my day, the world, what I would be like as an adult, making up stories, etc. I thought this was totally normal until I was about 15 and told someone about it. I sometimes wonder what I would be like if I hadn't had trouble falling asleep my whole life...if I got a consistent 8 hours of sleep every night, instead of the sporadic 4-7 hours I actually get. Would I be smarter? funnier? taller?
I usually keep my insomnia to myself, as it's a difficult thing to explain to someone who's never experienced it without sounding over-dramatic. That's why I get so happy when people hit it right on the nose...like in this email a friend sent me the other day:
"I have a few insomniac rituals myself, normally consisting of trying to figure out how municipal systems work (water, sewage, trash, electricity wires, etc) without any relevant knowledge. Or I interview myself as if I'm sitting on those boring Sunday mid-day political talk shows"
I've done both of those things, btw.
Okay, now show me yours...what do you obsess about while you're trying to fall asleep? Or what late night activities do you keeps yourself occupied with when you can't fall asleep?